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NS 4th Week

I haven’t been updating a lot for wk last week due to:
1) I was working, and was too tired to update at night
2) It was a short week, and hence one post for the 4 days seems fine

Wk says that he has gotten used to sleeping there, but he still cannot get used to losing his freedom, and having to obey those higher-ranked-people in Tekong. Well, who would want to listen to people who spews vulgarities every minute? I won’t.

Wk had his route march yesterday and this morning, and there were abrasions between his legs due to the sweat and blah blah blah, and his neck had some rashes due to carrying the rifle strap around his neck. Yucks! Don’t know how many people had been using that strap previously and how much sweat is there. Bacteria!!!! Gross. And the bedsheets, he said, had green patches and not like the ones we saw when we visited the bunks - clean and white. I guess the bunks we visited were like the ’showflats’. For show only lah!

And then, wk will be coming back in another 3 more days! :) But after this weekend, I will not be seeing him for another 2 more weeks. Field camp :(

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together with my dear

these 25mths have been great, being together with my dear. we do things together, things such as eating and drinking. haha… and the only thing we have left is to blog together. This is it.

even thought we had been together for 25 months le, everyday and every moment which each other feels very fresh as if I had only just proposed to her yesterday. we are always madly in love.

:)

the things we have in common is countless, and we think that we are made for each other, like how the edge of a puzzle piece fits perfectly with a corresponding one. since dear’s enlistment, we have been loving each other even more than before and i know that this person will be staying by my side, as my spouse, till our hair white white. but his hair will turn white first cos he always think too much. haha…

everytime when I get to book out from tekong I will be overwhelmed with joy, happy that I finally get to see my dear again after a difficult week. And when the time comes for me to book in, I’ll be filled with sadness, sometimes so overwhelming that tears would flow. Crying is not something guy should do, but in the foreseeable future I would expect my eyes to be leaking every sunday.

i love him. i love the way he cares for me and love me. i love it when he would look at my eyes and tell me that i am ****. this he should know. he would take care of me when i am ill, or when i stupidly clumsily falls down. his heart would ache when he sees that i am in pain. i love you dear! :)

my dear’s 2 yrs, i believe, will pass quicker than anyone else’s as i will be his supporter, and he can also look forward to meeting me everytime he books out. most people do not have this privilege. haha…

lalalalala…. <<<<<<<<<< dear’s favourite tune. haha… :)

another booking in again. A sad night for me, no doubt, especially considering that I flopped my SMU interview just now also.

but inside my mind, the countdown had already began. I am counting down to the next time I get to book out, and to see my beautiful girlfriend again, and to drown myself in the love, care and concern that she showers me with.

people say that it is easy for couples to break up when the guy enters NS. We say is is impossible for us to break up when I am serving NS.

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Survival @ Tekong

Finally, I am back to what i call home.

Before I get on with talking about the 15 days @ Tekong, let me begin by giving my thanks. A big thanks to my fellow blog readers for staying with me. A super duperly big thanks to my girlfriend, Si Hui, for giving me emotional support, and helping me to settle and arrange external stuff while I am totally cut off from the internet, such as my SMU interview schedule, running of Slops, and helping me to blog.

Military life is totally different from that of a civilian’s. The first few days there, I felt very disorientated inside. A better word to replace “disorientated” would be the one that is more commonly referred to as the “F” word. As recruits, we are the lowest life form on the island, like horses on a farm ready to be abused in any way possible by the farmer. Even your parents don’t yelp and bark and hurl vulgarities at you and expect you to follow instructions without questions and blindly. But that is the way of life for a recruit @ Tekong.

The longing for my loved ones is very unbearable in the first few days there. Whenever I think of only being able to see them on weekends (and only approximately 24 hours) every week, I began to feel giddy and my head starts to throb. Emotional pain can lead to very physical consequences. The giddiness and headache was so unbearable that I was given 2 days of light duties, or “Attn B” for short, meaning I do not need to participate in any physical activities for 2 days. The panadol given helped, so did the medicine to help remove my giddiness, but soon after I felt worse off. I was constantly out of breath for no particular reason (I was still on “Attn B”). I went to visit the medical centre again, thinking that my childhood asthma had come back. But the X-ray showed nothing. The doctor diagnosed that I was suffering from Dysphoria, but that he kept it to himself. I only happened to see what he wrote on a piece of paper. I was then given a further 3 days of “Attn B”. After being there for slightly more than 1 week, I finally start to feel better. The physical trainings helped released the negative feelings in me too. That much for mental well being.

Living condition there was much better than that of many years ago. SAF loves to boast about that. But everything in the world had improved and became better since my father’s or grandfather’s time. How can living condition at BMTC not improve? On enlistment day our parents were given a tour of our bunks, with pure white bedsheets, an annex room with pool table and TV and air-con for games, basket ball courts, and beautiful toilet. On our first night there we were told that the bedsheets were called “Display sets”, and we had to take them off and replace them with the real one, which looks dirty and yellowish. There is no time to use the annex room (we were not allowed to use it during the first 2 weeks, and our daily free time of 1 hour is too short for us to bath, wash clothes, shit, call loved ones, and still go and play pool). Game sports are not included as part of the trainings. The basketball court was used by sergeants at night for their own basketball game, and by us in the day to do our warm-ups on.

Food doesn’t taste too bad. At times it is delicious. But it is very repetitive. We had chicken drumlets at least once a day since 7 days ago till my book out day. For lunch and dinner, everyday we eat rice. The lack of variety is sickening, but we need the food for energy. So just eat lor.

Being away from loved ones had taught me not to take them for granted. I feel that this is the most valuable lesson learnt during the 2 weeks @ Tekong. That much for now. Life @ Tekong is pretty repetitive and uninteresting. It had severely made my brain grow retarded and I find thinking and writing a very draining and tiresome task now. So I’ll just stop this entry here, and let myself enjoy my remaining minutes of freedom before booking in again.

Let the time flow, and the next weekend comes again for me to see my dear again. And the next, and the next…

Our encik told us to write an essay about our 2 weeks @ Tekong and hand it to him. Lazy to write another one, I just make some really really small changes to the above.

Military life is totally different from that of a civilian’s. The first few days there, I felt very disorientated inside. As recruits, we are like blank sheets of paper, ready to be filled with knowledge and skills about military by our commanders. However, it takes some time to get used to. Even your parents don’t shout commands at you. But that is the way of life for a recruit @ Tekong.
The longing for my loved ones is very unbearable in the first few days there. Whenever I think of only being able to see them on weekends (and only approximately 24 hours) every week, I began to feel giddy and my head starts to throb. Emotional pain can lead to very physical consequences. The giddiness and headache was so unbearable that I was given 2 days of light duties, or “Attn B” for short, meaning I do not need to participate in any physical activities for 2 days. The panadol given helped, so did the medicine to help remove my giddiness, but soon after I felt worse off. I was constantly out of breath for no particular reason (I was still on “Attn B”). I went to visit the medical centre again, thinking that my childhood asthma had come back. But the X-ray showed nothing. The doctor diagnosed that I was suffering from Dysphoria, but that he kept it to himself. I only happened to see what he wrote on a piece of paper. I was then given a further 3 days of “Attn B”. After being there for slightly more than 1 week, I finally start to feel better and was able to join back the physically trainings. The physical trainings helped released the negative feelings in me too. Physical trainings are good.
Living condition there was much better than that of many years ago, since my father’s or grandfather’s time. On enlistment day our parents were given a tour of our bunks, with pure white bedsheets, an annex room with pool table and TV and air-con for games, basket ball courts, and beautiful functionable toilets.
Food doesn’t taste too bad. At times it is delicious. But it can be very repetitive. We had chicken drumlets at least once a day since 7 days ago till my book out day. For lunch and dinner, everyday we eat rice. The lack of variety is very sian, but we need the food for energy. So just eat lor.
Being away from loved ones had taught me not to take them for granted. I feel that this is the most valuable lesson learnt during the 2 weeks @ Tekong. When we get to see our loved ones all the time, we began to take things for granted. It is with absence and not being around our loved ones that makes us miss our loved ones even more and learn how to treasure and love them even more.
The 15 days @ Tekong had come to an end. Although it is overwhelming psychologically, I am proud to say that I had lived through it and learnt many things. It is certainly a fulfilling experience.

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NS Day 11

Haha… Weikiat’s bunkmate overheard their very fierce sergeant playing pokemon telling another sergeant, ’see my pikachu so happy’. LOL… It seems like the fierce people are so bored that they have to resort to playing pokemon. LOL…

Another point to note is that weikiat has been receiving calls from SMU the past week but he unfortunately missed all the calls. I helped him email the admissions office and was told that weikiat has been shortlisted for an interview with the SMU School of Information Systems. Good for him :)

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NS Day 8

It is weikiat’s day 8 there and I think he should be feeling a lot better now. He is more used to life without his laptop, PSP, and most importantly, gf :)

On Wednesday, weikiat did shit work for the obese company who is passing out that day. There was also the stand by bed.

He will be having his swimming test (most probably, if he can) tomorrow, and route march on Sunday. Monday would be to the Discovery Centre.

Ok, the above information was given by weikiat through an sms on Wednesday.

So long~
(Yay! It’s no longer next next friday! Neither is it next friday! It is the coming Friday!!!!! :) :) :) )

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NS Day 5

Curse weikiat!

The curse:
He will not get Miss Singapore Universe as his gf.

http://z12.invisionfree.com/thewickedforum/index.php?showtopic=458

Why am I cursing him?

He told me he would sms me everyday to report about his day there, and I will post whatever he smsed me onto his blog. But up till today, the 5th day, he has not even smsed me anything post-able.
Urgh…

But I think he is beginning to get used to the life there, and beginning to get used to losing his freedom. Haha…

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NS Day 4

Day 4.

Weikiat is already super stressed, and headache-ing. He yearns to come out of that island; he wants time to pass quickly; he feels that waiting till next friday is too long for him; he wants out of course after seeing a few people out of course, packing up, and going home.

Good thing his buddy assured him that the 1st 2 weeks is like that. His buddy told him that the 1st 2 weeks will be very ****ed up, and the other weeks will be better. I hope so too.

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NS Day 3

Yesterday was weikiat’s 3rd day at Tekong, and he is starting to learn the foot drills. It was hilarious when weikiat told me that he could not understand the commands initially and when people turn to their left, weikiat turned to his right. Haha…

Nothing much yesterday. Today will be the start of his physical training, but due to headache, he has been given light duty for 2 days.

Good luck weikiat. I hope you come back soon. And fine.

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NS Day 2

Yesterday was his 2nd day there.

He sent me this sms:

V sian lah.. Our platoon sergeant so fierce. Tsun Lam (an AJ friend) one v gd lor.
Then the water got things floating inside one. Ek.

Yucks! Water got things floating inside can drink meh? My 1st reaction was that that was really unhygienic and luckily weikiat loves drinking tap water at home and his immune system should be strong enough to withstand germs from the worms and flies floating inside.

Also, I can tell that he is really sad there but I cannot do anything to help. I feel so useless. My bf is suffering in that island and I can only sms him encouraging stuffs to make his stay there a bit better. That’s all. I can’t do anything else. :(

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NS 1st day.

Weikiat sent me an sms:

Siao liao sibei siong.
Fuck

Ok, it seems that his officer is some noob, and he thinks that being hard on the recruits is the right way to shine. And that noob even got scolded by people of higher rank for being too fierce. LOL.

Hope Weikiat is alright…

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